Is it worth it?

We'll never know when a thing is actually worth it or not. But, soon enough we'll find out. It might end happily ever after or it'll just be another heart breaking experience. Going on the third month of our long distance relationship. Nothing big seems to be the problem but I just had to feel very vulnerable, "WHY"? Other people might have never have to go through long distance relationship ever, but its not a choice for others. Well, the only choice is to break off the relationship and move on. But what if I'm those who likes challenges but at the same time don't want to be left alone? Before going through this, many friends have told me that this is hard and that it might not end as you wanted it to be. Both party could have hard time facing personal life and in addition, having to worry about someone else across the ocean. Not knowing what the other person is really doing could be very stressful to deal with. Time difference, Communication, trust, could be other issues. Frankly, I think the problem is with me. There are many things that I'm afraid to accept or face. There are things that I can't let it be hanging and not answered. I feel nothing is enough. Even though I know what he is doing and who his friends are, we still talked or at least text, at times we video call each other, but yet I still have so many things running in my head. Am I being too free? or Am I being too sensitive? Sometimes I even wonder if all this thinking, worrying, heart ache actually worth withstanding it? There are a lot of "what if's" in my head and I'm sure it'll keep on popping up now and then. There are times I just want to share my days, there are times where I just want to know how he is, sometimes I just want someone to shout to without being judged. At times I just want him to myself the whole day. Its so hard to have him on the phone for hours and hours and hours.. You know how people say that if you are far and don't see each other every minute, by the time you got the chance, that time you'll have lots to say.. But it doesn't work for me. I talk to people spontaneously and if I don't get to do that, I don't really bother anymore. But if it's something really, then I'll remember it until I can get it out. I have heard many previous story of people breaking the relationship after three months of long distance, now I could understand why. Its not totally anyone's fault but sometimes people tend to be very vulnerable and at this point of time they needed someone close to them to talk to and share everything out. My boyfriend across the ocean might have a girl next to him right now, talking and sharing their day and work with a pitcher of beer in front of them. I would never know whether this is real or just imagination. And here I am sitting in front of my computer, clearing my heads off believing that my trust for him is worth it. My wait for his return to my arms is worth waiting for and our future is worth fighting for. Whatever the end result would be, at least I know I'm the one who is truthful and loyal.