Lettin' someone you love is never easy.. Your family, friends, and also other people you love.. Some people never realized how much someone can really mean to them until they lose it,, but in other cases, after lettin'someone go, it means a new life for them..
A friend once told me that life on earth will never be easy,, problems everywhere and people tend to get hurt now and then.. The earth is in the middle of Heaven and Hell.. There is 100% of HEAVEN above the earth, and 100% of HELL below the earth.. And in the earth itself,consists of 50% HEAVEN and 50% HELL.. Thus, everyone livin in this world will experienced 50% Heaven and 50% Hell..
Recently i have just lost someone i love.. Many people says that he is not meant for me,, I deserve someone better.. But there were many things we've been throgh together and made me love him more.. He taught me a lot about life,, and showed me the world.. Once he said that he never wanna be apart and hope the relationship will last long.. i believed him,, as i thought that he is in his 20's and should be able to think more mature.. But everything ended up in dissapointment.. He left me with some logical reason but later on i found out that he is soooo not mature. In times i regret beign with him,, but at other times, i don't.. It was just lately that i realized i should not regret any decision i made.. coz it happened already..
It was just yesterday i found out that he was after a new girl.. Beign near him for 2 months is not a short period of time and i know some of his personality.. Out of my mind i came up to the girl and introduced myself.. Got her number and i gave it to him.. Even though deep inside it hurts badly, and never in life i would do this, but at least now i know he got someone better than me. And now,, my work is done..
Since the first time i hooked up with a guy, i neva wanna let the guy be with a "BAD" girl after breakin' up with me.. And if that guy turn "BAD", i will blame myself.. Coz i feel that it is because of me that he become like that.. I want him to be better in life even after breakin' up with me.. Many people called me stupid, coz he doesn't even care about me anymore, but i still do.. But that's my way to express my love.. =)
Life will never be as easy as turning your palm.. And as time pass, you'll just need to experience more and learn more.. Hope you'll have a good life ahead... (dedicated to all my ex-boys)
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